Sunday, March 30, 2008
# - 5:32 AM
hiie ppl
revising for mep
I HATE CHINESE AND INDIAN MUSIC
HATE IT
and i am super tiried and dizzy
ONE HOUR of sight reading
i am gonna crazy
i dunno if i can hold out for one more month
time pass really fast
one month......
i am losing my appetite
JL
Thursday, March 27, 2008
# - 5:52 AM
hiie ppl
todayi was feeeling quite low
but yeeyee and hui qi and xiao rui lighted my mood a little
but today was totally a bad day
i wished i had not went to school
i felt so insulted
so
insulted
and much more most of the time when i felt insulted is by the same person.
im sorry yunyi dont ask y im sorry
i understood what that electrical waves supernatural uno-chan girl was feeling
im sorry
why do i always feel worst when alone at home
i guess i think too much
JL
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
# - 6:02 AM
hiie ppl
wow i realise listening to music really helps
even beethoven's ha
kimi said that bach and mozart's music is used for therapy
and i was going wat!
bach's ???
every timie i play bach i feel stress
and do MATHS
i cant get the graph right
i just cant
JL
# - 4:52 AM
hiie ppl
i am depressed
i didnt want to see it
much less open it
but they said its ur letter u open it
i feel like tearing it into pieces
i feel like running away from reality
that dream that i always had when i was young
kept running similing hmmm
that darkness
that permanent scar
i cant shake it away
wat if something went wrong like last time
wat if i see the bass as treble again
wat if the flats became sharps
or major became minor
wat if......... i fail again
that fear i cant shake it away
i cried in the bath room behind that water
i cried and laughed when my mum saw me
it was a disguise
i am actually shivering shaking right now
wat if.....i let everyone down again
stop talking about it mum
stop it
just leave me alone
JL
Monday, March 24, 2008
# - 7:18 AM
hiie ppl
someone -- i shall not say who
said that i hate all composers with the B infront
well i love bach
to get things right and to get my doubts right
here are my reasons for liking and disliking a composer
bach-- I LOVE HIM WORKS he is my current favourite composer=)
i realised that no matter how many times i play his pieces its always interesting
and its nice... special unique different so different from other pieces
but i hate his sons they wanted to simplify like make it easier or watever
they found their FATHER'S works too complex
what the hell
and his works were unpopular after he died as ppl found it too ornamental and too old fashion
wat the hell
and only until dunno wat year last time i had to memorise forgot already
mendelsohn rediscovered his choral MASTERpieces and his work began to err... be popular again i think
the only thing i dont like was that he had too many children and marry his own...? cousin i think well it was quite common at that time so cant blame him
beethoven-- i HATE him who knows how many immortal beloves does he have hmm>? and he is so ooooooo emotional
p.s. i admire his works though and he used to be my favourite composer.
brahms-- i find him ok but cant accept the fact that he betrayed his teacher schumann thats wat i think by the way he had a crush on clara-- schumann's wife and clara actually helped him and encouraged him to compose like how she encouraged schumann i see this as kind of betrayal
p.s. i think his pieces always have super large whole chords but it is mostly rich in colour and the melody actually quite nice
schumann-- i only played like his pieces for children which i think children cant play that anway i find him ordinary but a little crazy in that he paralzyde his right hand i think while trying to widen it so he can play like 15 who noes and he could only compose after that.
schubert-- boring boring sonatas are like beethoven
mendelssohn-- only nice one is lied ohne worte song without words
handel haydn -- boring broing and more boring
mozart-- he was a genius totally GENIUS he can play the piece after hearing once and even make a few variations out of it u ppl should have watched amadeus its like he didnt think of chords and just take the pen and write down woah
although he should control how he spend money and not go to pubs and get drunk so often
p.s. he used to be my favourite composer until i found him childish and boring
chopin-- used to be my favourite composer too lengthy and he composed like over 100 waltzs i think i used to memorise it ha forgot and many ballads too and only two opus of etudes
i only like his etudes
waltzs ok lah
his works quite nice though
20th century composers i dont like any of them except i like rachmaninov and debussy their works quite nice
i HATE prokofiev i dont know wat the hell the melody and it sounds totally atonal
hmmm... thats all
i realised i can talk a lot about music
hmmm i really do love music.....
JL
Sunday, March 23, 2008
# - 6:41 AM
hiie ppl
my favourite snack
my main source of energy
CHOCOLATES
its out of stock
wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i am totally exhuasted
i was tortured by my piano teacher
five or six times of etude
two more at night
i am totally tiried
both physically and mentally
oh wells i conculded
although i like inuyasha
i think that this for me is wat i like
most till least
FULL METAL ALCHEMIST
bleach d-gray man
inuyasha
fruit basket buso renkin
and lets see i cant think of any....
gd night ppl
cya tmr
JL
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
# - 5:27 AM
hiie ppl
i went to yunyi's blog
her blogskin was like inspiration
and it inspired me ha
and i thought of a melody
by the way
just a suggestion mep ppl doing the theme
make the time signature 3/4 its easier cos just do like waltz for the left hand
just a advice
JL
# - 4:53 AM
hiie ppl
ok lala is so lucky
that damn 74 today is sooo bumpy
like a rabbit hopping and hopping
i was like ahhhhhh
its like horse back
ok i never rode on a horse but its like wat i imagine
that lala is getting on my nerves
u must play the correct bowing blahblah blah
must okay down a little bow must be up
argh she sounds like mr yang
and he isnt even there
and i dont care even if there is rosind or watever way u spell it like on the fingerboard cos someone before me already like made the fingerboard super yellow and adding some more wouldnt even make a difference.
she sounds soooooooooo IRRITATING
OK FINE I NOE NOE AND I DONT BOTHER TOO
seriously i dont even care
i just want to take db as an enjoyment
not like must go take grade 5 quoted from my teacher... argh
and i already have enough trouble trying to find out wat fingering the note is
i always recognise the note
but i CANT instanly get the fingering argh
ok fine i noe bowing matters
i wil try my best k???
but sometimes u have to get the note right and thats like more important than bowing
and i want to take db easy not to serious
as in i take piano very seriously but i do love it and thats how i can get serious like i love it a lot
but i am starting to like the db not as much as piano
but i dont really care to practice like the piano like waste my brain cells on it ya
its like actually sometimes i think the db is cool
ha
u noe sometimes i think playing instruments should be counted as a sport
sometimes after practicing a piece i am like more tiried that after running 1 km
and sometimes if u really seriously spend effort on it
to me its tiring seriously no joke
and i am already frustrated with my fingerings used on the piano
u noe i super long time no play scales
and the "pro" thing is nowadays i try
i can play the scales fluently no problem
but the fingerings are anyhow and always end up with lets see... 3?4?
ha
well but actually in my opinion scales arppegios those practice exercises and theory are important in playing
but i never really care about them
sometimes i regret it
oh wells just practice when the time comes ha i am always slacking
trying to have inspiration for the variations i thought of one on my way home
but it sliped out of my mind
had one just now
now forgot hmm... i shall just let it inspire myself then
JL
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
# - 6:25 AM
hiie ppl
I CANT BELIEVE IT I CANT!!
I REALLY FEEL LIKE TAKING A PENKNIFE AND KILL THAT PERSON
ok my dad was watching news
then he told me to come look
and i saw this CRAZIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD
playing a GRAND PIANO PURPOSELY PUT ON FIRE at the beach
WHAT THE HECK!
U DUN WANT THAT GRAND PIANO GIVE IT TO ME LAH
its so many ppl's dream
having a grand piano....
i am heartbroken
TOTALLY heart broken
someone mend my heart for me....
JL
Monday, March 17, 2008
# - 6:30 AM
hiie ppl
wah i have been sneezing and sneezing at almost every night nowadays
i am DEPRIVED OF SLEEP
JL
Saturday, March 15, 2008
# - 10:44 PM
hiie ppl
I HAVE TOTALLY TOTALLY NO IDEA WAT TO WRITE TO MY DAD!
I AM FREAKING OUT!
JL
# - 10:01 PM
hiie ppl
i am doing that super idiotic card
u noe the card to parents
and the hairs on my hand are standing up
its so errrr rou ma
like so
i never knew i can write so ... things
guess i read to many stories.
JL
# - 8:11 AM
hiie ppl
blogskin changed
well i managed to figure out some things
and managed to change the font of the div thingy
and got a headache
dont get how pro lala can do the whole thingy
i change some parts of it and i am having headache
trying to finish that chinese book
try of very funny and boring
as in the stories are so not real
JL
Friday, March 14, 2008
# - 6:36 AM
hiie ppl
wheeee
I BROKE MY OWN RECORD!!
the first time playing hanon 's those kind of technique pratices continuously for over 30 min
the last time was only 15 min anyway that was like two years ago?
my hands feel like jelly right now
anyway hanon that book was the only one that i completed
school of velocity... blahblah
my teacher forgot about it
and i "forgot" about it too=)
somehow i only like hanon's one
the only one i found interesting....
JL
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
# - 6:46 AM
hiie ppl
gosh gosh everything is shocking me
from buso renkin to shakespeare secret
WAHHHHH I AM TOTALLY AMAZED AND SHOCKED
JL
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
# - 6:27 AM
hiie ppl
frogive me for not updating
i went to kino kuniya on friday and all of a sudden
my passion for books grew from a pea to a erm... ball
ha just a random sentence it sounds so lame
well i went there and i went err.. ok anyway
i went there and i went I WANT TO BUY THIS BOOK I WANT TO BUY THAT BOOK THSI AND THAT BOOK
ya u get the point
i wanted to buy this P.S i love you
u noe this movie recently
ok i am not those type of going
ICHIRUKI HITSUMORI or watever in the world
but i just found that book interesting
ok for those who havent heard of it at all
its like her husband died
and then she started receiving letters from her husband
leading her on to her new life
something like that
but if i go and watch that movie
my mum would go that movie is so ..
ya u get the point
ok so in the end i brought this pride and prejudice book
I SO LOVE THAT BOOK
i read the simplfied chinese version of that and i was TOTALLY totally addicted to it
and this shakespeare secret
i found it abondoned in a heap of books
its so cool ok
thats the reason why i havent been updating
cos for three days continouslyi have been reading this book for at least two hrs
yup
the author is like this person who got a phD i duuno wats that in english and literature in harvord miss lalabanaankayamasalahaha's dream school
ha my dream school is juliard i only knew that school from august rush went to watch it so touching
anyways ya ok the back cover says this
a women left to die in a burning theatre. another woman drowned like Ophelia, skirts swirling in the water. Adoctor has his throat slashed open on the steps of the washington's captitol building
a deadly serial killer is on the loose, moelling his sickening murders on Shakespeare's plays
but why is he killing and how can he be stopped
so cool its like ok wells ya
and i go grasping like very chapter k maybe i am exaggerating
u noe i cant believe that the author its like he got phD watever in the world that is
on lit and eng but not on music
and its like mendellsohn and prokofiev are mention and i was like going
wow how does he even noe that
ok ebough on that book
hmm... well ya
had a debate with my dad
my side was that killers kill for a reason
and his was killers dont kill for a reason
my side even crazy ppl kill cos they have a crazy reason
and some kill cos they are hired so for money
but his side some are born to kill
well it had no ending
going to watch csi later
so gonna read the book now
bb
cya ppl
tmr theres string ensemble
wah
i so dont wanna go
JL
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
# - 5:39 AM
hiiie ppl
OMG I LOVE THIS CD
i am like listening to it now
title is the best of rachmaninov
i love that composer but his pieces like super duper hard seriously
but its nice
especially rhapsody on a theme of paganini
no wonder its popular its so nice
JL
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
# - 5:20 AM
hiie ppl
i went to tighten my braces today
changed to orange
and went to heeren the hmv there
at first i wantedto buy x-men 2 dvd
in the end i didnt buy any dvds
ha
unknowillingy i walked to the music section
and brought this cd
the best of rachmaninov
oh wells i kind of like him
dont think the watever funny way
there was rhapsody on a theme of paganini
its super nice i heard it once
borrowed the cd from esplanade
ya
JL
